What does it feel like to be a college senior in 2020 during COVID?
It is as if everything I have worked towards has been ripped away from me and thrown in the trash. Over the past four years I have worked my ass off to earn my bachelors of science with high honors. As an anxiety ridden person I put extra stress on myself to get the grades I knew I was capable of. There were many nights where I questioned if my hard work was going to payoff but I always told myself it would all be worth it when I got to walk across the stage knowing I did my best. Then COVID decided to come in and take that all away from me. I no longer get to physically graduate or experience senior week with all my fellow seniors. I had looked forward to these moments all four years of school and now they just aren’t happening and there is nothing I can do to change that. It is just unfair and honestly bullshit. I understand why I no longer get these experiences but I am just heartbroken. Most seniors won’t admit it but I will, I absolutely hate it when people say sorry to me or say we can celebrate your achievements later after corona isn’t as bad. So many people have told me it is going to be okay and that I should be grateful to even graduate in the first place. But, the people saying those things haven’t had such large life experiences taken away from them. No one can truly understand how it feels unless it is happening to them. In the end I just feel like I will never get that last moment of college where I feel like I achieved my goals which is just depressing.
For other seniors reading this, this youtube video may help some fo you become a little more okay with how you are feeling.
For those who have not read up on coronavirus you can get more educated here
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